I sometimes think and I can’t help it but think about memories that I want to forget. The question “Why?” pops up constantly and I’m always looking at the past. When will I finally look into the present? That is something I might never achieve.

No matter what I do, there are certain memories I can’t forget and that is a pain sometimes worse than death itself. 

What emotions can describe this… No single one. Words can not encompass any of it.

All I can really do is repress them, however the memories will always arise late at night. Along with the memories could other emotions and effects. Suffering is part of memories and I wonder how far they can travel. Will there be light at the end of this journey?

Memories are curses from which I can not recover from at this moment of my life…